The later it gets, the closer I come to doing something monumentally stupid in the grand scheme of our friendship and my crush.
This seems to have become the blog where I write things that I don’t want read by people I know because they follow my main blog. So, here we go. I had a crush on this guy for a very long time. We became friends. I convinced myself that he might like me. And then he asked another girl out and I recently convinced myself that I was over him. Literally the day after I had decided that they broke up, leaving me very confused about my feelings for him. He and I are still friends. I keep catching him looking at me and I’m not sure if there’s some spark, or if he just wants a friend to talk to and is hoping I take the hint. I’m not sure how I view him any more. I know the crush isn’t completely gone, but I also know that I have come to view him as a friend, and that there are other things to take into consideration. In summation: ugh.
Restarted today. Got through most of it, and then got a very painful stitch in my neck. Felt very good by the time I got home. I always forget how good it feels until I do it again.